Hey people =)

As I was taking my shower earlier on, my conversation with Rappy came flashing back. She reminded me that our blog is going cold and I should be typing out an entry soon. I replied that I wasn't mapling that actively now and I totally have no idea on what to blog about =(

If you guys noticed, I have never really post about any subject that is private to me and I usually limit my entries to maple happenings =X Guess I'm quite a private person eh? But as I was showering just now, I was thinking "Ahhhh... Drats it! Why shouldn't I be a little more open?" Hehe =)

Had an early start today. Got shook awake by my dearest Mummy at 9am to get ready to visit my Grandfather's urn at some temple at Sin Ming district area. With barely enough sleep, and smoke watering my tired eyes, I believe I was a quite a terrible sight.

Noticed quite a few interesting things at the temple. I was asking my mum why do some of the people have the privilege of having the monk to say some prayers for their loved ones? Mummy said: "Aiyah 'cos they give them money ma, so the monk will pray for them."

Interesting. I always thought that monks are not suppose to be greedy you know? I mean they give up eating meat, having sex, looking good (shaved head)... and yet the monk prayed for them because they gave him money? Doesn't make sense to me =\

Besides that, my Granny pointed to a statue and told me that that's the god that will let out my Grandfather's spirit to come eat the feast we prepared for him. She then quickly walked towards the statue and started to pray for it to let Grandfather out.

Upon hearing that, I was kind of sad for my Grandfather. I did like to think that he is up in the heavens having a peaceful time, not trapped in some temple and having to ask for permission to come out to eat?! Why must we put my Grandfather in such misery even after he passed on?

I'm so not cut out to be a Buddhist. I prefer the Christianity way, although there are still some things about Christianity that's bugging me too. Buddhist friends, please don't be offended yeah? It's just some personal thoughts and I might have misunderstood some rituals =)

Mum just asked me to give her a number to buy Toto. She said my uncle is helping the 7 of us who went to the temple this morning to share and buy 7 numbers. Reading the smses they exchanged, all of them seem hopeful about winning some money. Maybe I should allow myself to be a little hopeful too? Let's huat arh!

- Mandy =)